Thankful

First I'm thankful for the additions of a couple of new friends, Brenda at Hope Springs Infertile: Now with 2 Little Sprouts, and Becca at Beccasfamilyof5 to my blog.  Thank you for joining me and I SO look forward to getting to know each of you. 


Second I'm thankful to Missy at My Unglorious Life for teaching me how to follow people who don't have a follow button! (THAT was frustrating!!!)

Third, I'm thankful that I'm feeling good today.

Its a very busy time right now as so much is happening in our lives.


Of course, IF is always there.  But we try not to dwell, if we can.  We are also in the process of screening applicants for our basement apartment - always a nerve wracking time.  My poor garden is showing how neglected its been this year, not to mention the weather extremes it has been put through by mother nature.  I'm taking on a few singing students for the fall in order to make some grocery money - but I've lost all of my materials and have to re-write all of my handouts from scratch, as well as my curriculum.


And, I'm 99% certain I am going back to school in November.  There are a lot of preparations that have to be made in order to make that happen - not the least of which is sorting out our finances.  So I've spent the last week bringing all of our financials up to date and down on spreadsheets so I can see the whole picture.  Wow - its not a pretty one.  We overspend - huge.  A big chunk is all of my expenses for Naturopath, Accupuncture, Chiropractor & all the supplements that go along with that.  Another big chunk is eating out at restaurants.  As I've said, I love food, and I would almost venture to say that I'm a hairs breadth from being a food addict.  Really.  I have some sort of emotional attachment to it that I have to come to terms with.


On the bright side, though, by looking at all of this now I see so much opportunity for us.  Its going to be a very hard couple of years while I am in school, keeping the purse strings tight - but if we succeed in following the budget I have laid out then at the end of it all we should be in a really great place - better than I thought we could ever be in.  In fact, we should be able to pay off my (HOPEFULLY GETTING ONE) student loan within the 6 months that you need to after graduating before they begin to charge interest!


So...I don't know what this optimistic streak is all about right now.  We are scrounging for money and things will get worse before they get better.  Its CD 53, I exhibit classic signs of being menopausal at age 37 (38 in a couple months...sigh), I don't feel at all optimistic about the prospects or possibility of being able to have my own genetic child with my husband and that breaks my heart.


And yet today....I feel light.  I feel energized.  I feel like almost....ALMOST...anything could be possible....


I surely hope that anything is.


Hugs all